fake deep tumblr post: drink 8 gallons of water....eat mangoes so ur snatch smells good....eliminate 1 toxic friend a day...and your life will be fixed =)

me: are there any spirits listening

ouija: yes are you alone

me: yes

ouija: haha nice whats up :P

me: trying to contact my dead grandmother

ouija: cool cool so what would u be doing if i was alive right now lol

sweatyscrotum:

I’m not like other girls!XD

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I only have guy friends. I mean all girls do is start drama.image

Oh my god, i hate sluts! image

Other girls my age like to drink and party but i like to stay inside and read or watch netflix! I’m so weird. image

All the girls in my school care about is makeup and shopping and all i care about is FOOD and VIDEO GAMES. lol sometimes i think i was born a guy.image

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Im so confused. One minute i hate myself and the next i dont. But i dont love myself really. I feel as if i look huge, i feel like i need to shrink down and be small. But its so unhealthy, I know that. Im disgusted with myself and i dont even know why. I’m being threatened with being sent to a therapist but i dont want to. I can do this on my own i dont need anyones help. But then again Im helpless and cant even go one day without looking at myself and being disgusted with what i see. What the fuck do i do? And i feel like a bad child because it hurts my mom to see me this way but im not doing it to hurt her its just how i am and i’ve always been like this. I want it to stop but i feel like i cant do that. Part of me wants to cling to my disorder for dear life and the other wants to let it go and love myself and both are so hard to do. I feel like a failure for ever going back to eating normally and i know i cant think that way. This is so hard and i dont even have the time to think about what to do. I just need a break from my hatred and i dont know how to do that. I have no true coping mechanisms. Theres so much more on my mind but this is enough for one night.